Today as my husband and I placed a call into the Vet clinic our hearts ache of the loss of our first child that will soon come. God has given us more time with Reno and in this moment we will not morn her but bless her, we will not cry we will laugh and smile at her.
When talking with Cadence about Reno she has such a great understanding of compassion for life. I know she has so much to teach me! She stated that Reno is in pain and that's not fun, that her grandmothers dog really needs Reno in heaven with her. Cadence has missed her grandmothers dog and in a moment I saw a comfort come over her to know that Reno would soon join her.
It's a hard thing to know that I have such an attachment to physical life and yet I have a 6 year old to show me that all living things passed or living always are in our hearts. Cadence tells me she hears and talks back to her Great Grandmother that passed away two years ago now and I know this has helped with the process of her no longer being on Earth with us for her. Cadence has such an old soul and is so wise for her age.
Cadence told me that she would kiss and hug Reno daily to let her know but that Reno already knew all of that. Reno has been with us for 10 years and I have been so blessed to have her in my life, when things were hard for me personally I always had Reno there in my lap being 110 pounds she didn't care. I remember when she was 120 pounds or more I had a miscarriage and was crying heavy in my pillow that wonderful being jumped on the bed beside me put her head on my back and began to lick my neck. This was her way and it was a wonderful way.
I know my blog is to be about the dance we have with children. But today it is about the dance I have with Reno who is my very first child and the first thing Todd and I did as a couple. This dance, this moment is so prefect in every way I wouldn't ask for anything more or less!!!
Love you baby girl I will not morn you today for today I have YOU!
"Tears of Joy"
13 years ago
Hey it's me Christy sorry about your dog. I was crying just reading this. I hope that Flipper can hang out with her and have a new play mate. I keep saying to myself that in Heaven a day is a 1,000 years but on earth we feel like a 1,000 years long time. When we get to see our pet's in heaven it will only feel like a long road trip to them and they will see you sooner then we think. I hope that this help you out somehow.
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