This morning started just the same as all the others before it. I called for the girls to come down stairs and get ready for school. Cadence needed more time in bed "I want 10 more minutes" she is already heading for her teen years with that statement. Caitlin was a rocket getting up, however when she got down stairs she didn't want to get ready AT ALL. I just had to breath while my 3 year old was yelling "I am not getting ready!" So I breathe again I close my eyes and I don't respond back to her yet.
I tell myself "Breathe, it will all work out. Breathe, this moment will pass. Breathe, and center. So I do this for a good 5 minutes while my 3 year old pitches the perfect fit. I hold the thought "this is not my day, this is a moment that I will enjoy for now but it will pass as all moments do." That thought was a great clear message to God that hey I am here and I know that, I hear and see my daughter and I can enjoy it because it IS WHAT IS at this very moment. Caitlin now sits up, drying her eyes and wiping her nose says "can you get me dressed now?"
Caitlin told me what I needed to do in this new moment. In this new moment I am to get her dressed I know that because she just told me. The moment before this I was to breath and reconnect myself, I know that because Caitlin told me that as well. When we are able to stop and look at our children as guides of how we feel inside ourselves not only do we help ourselves reconnect but we get a healthy relationship with our children. Before all this I didn't know I woke up off balance but before my day could start and I could do any damage Caitlin showed me my balance and showed me my way back HOME.
I didn't choose a path of yelling back. Wow it could have looked like this: both of us yelling one over the other back and forth, louder and louder. Cadence would have been throw off to having a loud yelling day, Todd would have woken up to yelling and have that set his day. Caitlin would have gone to school full of tears and completely upset with me. I would have sent both girls out the door mad, because that MAD feeling would have been the tone and Cadence would have received the message too.
I am glad I choose my moment. I am glad I listened and I am joyful both daughters are having a wonderful day today. Just breathe and it will all work out!
"Tears of Joy"
13 years ago
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