Saying Good-Bye

So I was thinking about what I would blog about today and I will just write about my day.....

I couldn't sleep lastnight waking several hours at a time. I woke this morning not feeling right, I couldn't explain it but my body hurt all over. I drove on into work anyway, only to find that I fell asleep at the wheel. I don't remember what happened before or really much after. I wasn't hurt and the car was just stopped in a grassy area by cows. I was lucky and the car wasn't damaged either. So I get to work pail and shaking, I could hardly walk, my lower back wanted my legs to give out. I got my boss before I even clocked in to get someone for help. The only vital that was off that the nurse at work could see was a pulse rate of 140 but nothing just popped out to them to what was going on.

My sweet boss drove me home where I was waiting for a call back from the Onaga clinic in bed not wanting to move. I had this sharp pain shoot across my chest then the phone rang, shortly after Todd came up and told me that we would have to let Reno go today or she would have to wait longer and be in pain that much longer. I couldn't do that, we couldn't do that we knew it was time. God gave us one more day with her and that was such a blessing to all of us!!!!

We had to wait an hour before the vet came to the house. With Reno's condition she wasn't able to be transported and because I left my car at work we just had to have her home there was no way we were getting her into the truck. The time came and went, I truly thought I would be so strong that this would be ok and that I could handle this. I held her in my arms and was hugging her while saying goodbye. What happened next was a moment I will NEVER forget, as I cry as I can't believe what I just did I felt my dog my first child leave and a peace came over my heart like no other. This peace didn't stop me from crying or hurting but more like Reno smiling down on me that she was ok and would go play forever now!

Reno told me this morning I needed to be home, I didn't listen and left and Reno brought me home just in time to be with her.

We say God isn't here well he was in this house today and scooped Reno up and took her home!!! I can't think of a better place or person to care for such a beautiful being!