Spending time with our children

So as I was thinking and talking about what I would blog about tonight I was drawing a blank, my friend asked what I learned from Cadence today? So here goes, as I suddenly felt a heavy heart and had a quick jolt of sadness I said out loud that I haven't had time with her today, I really haven't seen or talked to her. My heart hurt now I am sure I kept this within myself very well and I was able to not skip a beep but I did quickly get my blog for today.

Now for me I have always had to have quite alone time, but I have also always want people around. I'm not great with balance in this, and neither is Cadence she tells me some nights "I didn't get to spend alone time with you." and to that I always had to remind her that she is the one who didn't want her friends to leave. So now onto tonight once a week we have pizza and movie night with another family and I have felt so out of it tonight, my mind is all over the place, I feel moody, I feel like talking and not like talking, I feel bi-polar tonight and really all day, I could have slept all day.

When I was asked by my friend and not just a friend she is someone who really knows me what Cadence taught me I had a moment of she taught me something last year that I am now just getting. She showed me that we learn from each other when we are close and learning, when we are apart there is no lesson to be learned only how to be apart.