Lost Child

I have to blog about something that turned my world upside down, I am not ashamed about what happened b/c it happened I can't take it back and I most definitely can't think for one moment that I was a bad parent or that anyone but myself was to blame.
We went to Silver Dollar City last Monday and were having a blast, the last ride of the day happen to brake while we were waiting to get on and the whole time we waited (30 minutes) we were tossing the idea up of getting out of line and leaving but we didn't. Now once the ride broke and they cleared us all from the area my husband wanted to stop and gets drinks so we did. I looked between us and saw both our girls were right beside us. I heard my mom ask where was Cadence and at the moment I look right back to where she just was she was gone. My heart went to panic in 2.5 seconds, I couldn't think, I was a nervous wreck. I ran all around to all the area where she could have walked and saw nothing. Now the moment we lost her to finding her was only 10 minutes but in those 10 minutes I ran from one end of the park to the other and couldn't find her. I couldn't find a place in my heart that could me to calm down and that she was fine and that this would work out. I couldn't reach for God in that time to have any peace about what I was going through, I started going back in my head rebuilding all the men I noticed to what they looked like to a tee. I started grabbing everyone and anyone I could to ask about seeing my daughter.
I blog this b/c not only was there a lesson for us here but for everyone! I could feel embarrassed about what happened but I wont,I could beat myself up for not making my child hold my hand but I wont. I will look at this and help other mothers with tools to help keep them safe and their children safe.
When my daughter was asked "What happened, why did you keep walking" she answered so calm b/c I went to sleep. So did I, so did everyone that day and how wonderful that there was a happy ending to this. I went to sleep in life, my spiritual world was asleep, my life with my children was also asleep. When we are awake and aware we don't just walk off and not notice things around us.

So when my first love, my first born, my world says she just went to sleep I must ask myself "How do I do that to others and my self?" The answer was clear that day and from that day on I will always be awake and aware!!!!