Day 1 Background Info..

When we talk about spiritual enlightenment is just sounds so easy. You pick up a book that leads you down the path, you change your music to softer lighter music to give you that push of vibrational thinking, we put positive thinking in place of negative. However you forget that the negative thoughts can't be pushed out they must be accepted or they will just keep coming in like a flood gate over the dam open wide just for you. No one could have ever had prepared me enough when I choose this path with two small children and a husband how hard the balancing act would have been at first. I sat to read my first book and all I could hear was "Mommy I need" "Mommy so and so is doing this to me". I realized after weeks of this that my internal world was now becoming my external world. You think b/c you're doing something soulful that things would be calm around you but this is far from true. When we sit in a nervous energy, or worry state like I did those first weeks, sure who wouldn't its a new world. Those feelings will now become your childrens actions or anyone else around us for that matter, and if your alone the phone will ring. We not only balance the path with daily life but now we balance those new ides with parenting. How do I become a great Mother not through words but through my every move and in my mind. Children have always had a great ability to pick up how someone feels or thinks inside and my children are the best at it. When I sit and am completely in peace with myself my children are always at their best and when I try to do something I think is right well...... When I realized that my reflections and projections were mine I was able to sit and now process all the thing that I felt about myself. What mother See's a 2 year stop and pitch a fit in the middle of the store stop and ask her self "now how do I do that to myself or others" lol. Not many and I would be the first Mom to say I never did, I picked my child up and left with my head held low so no one could see my face. These days every little action my children display I am all about "how do I do that". Its fantastic to see kids go from boiling points to calm within minutes without anyone doing or saying anything to them directly. I use my tools from the Higher Mind, Lower Mind and process all the little things in life that we think others do to us. Why are children bad? They aren't nothing is bad, but those children do reflect their parents internal world so they can't help themselves. Children are of every age group I am still a child and learning every day, we forget that our children are ourselves in that they also need to learn every day as well. So food for thought tonight and ask your self: take one thing that happened today and ask yourself with pen and paper "How do I do that to myself" only through the honest words to ourselves will be begin to heal.