Loving Thy Self

Cadence came home from school with a letter that read the following:

I Love Myself! Do you Love yourself? If you do finish the colors in the Heart.
She drew a Heart at the bottom of the page. On the left side she colored it in with rainbow colors; very neat and very clean all within the lines. The right side of the Heart was left open for the person she wrote the letter to. Her Best Friend. Cadence wanted to make sure that her best friend would also answer the question "yes" so that the two of them would complete one heart with the different colors, the different colors are the different parts of them selves. Now I must be clear I have never in my life seen a child do this and do this in her free time just for fun.

I asked Cadence "How did you know to Love yourself?"  the different parts of themselves will be tomorrows Blog. She replies "because you told me too." I laughed and said Cadence I told you to love yourself? Really? "Yes Mommy because you love yourself, I know that we have to do that." Sad to say but I thought I battled this idea that I loved myself, was I good enough to raise these wonderful children? Was I worthy of having this husband? Am I valued as a Friend? Did I value others because I wasn't sure I valued myself. I self destruct every now again when things are at there best because of my self worth issues. I run out on employers who love me and respect the work I do for them, I do something to get fired when I know am I am at my best. I did all this without my child ever seeing these personal issues or lessons. Why? Because my lesson is just that, it is my lesson. It wasn't hers nor will it ever be. When I do something or see something that is a lesson to me only, I will perceive what I personally need from it.

To Cadence when I didn't work it was only because I wanted to be with her and Caitlin only. When I was sad she didn't care what took place only that she knew she needed to be there with/for me. This child who learned to love herself through me was now sharing all her unconditional love with me.

The unspoken once again has taught my child and myself a lesson so great that I didn't even think to teacher her. I never thought. "Wow! You know today I must teach Cadence and Caitlin to love themselves!" Lesson here is you can't teach anyone to love anyone especially them selves. We either learn this through others not from others or we stay in touch with that belief from birth. At birth we know perfect Love we are created in it! And if that stays alive within us we are able to maintain that over our years, to share with the world. My daughter did a lot; she showed me that I do love myself, and I am the perfect Mother for her and Caitlin!